Wednesday, February 27, 2008
i'm scared! taking the GMAT test tomorrow and i'm hoping that all goes well.
this semester has been stressful in another kind of way. i hate being left in the suspense and right now, thats how i feel about grad schools. I'll only know about it at the end of march.
i dont want to be left hanging if none of the schools accept me. (arh!)
BUT then again, I HAVE DONE MY BEST! so there is nothing else that i can do.
i am especially proud of the personal essays i wrote. because they ARE pretty good (after countless late night editings and forcing friends to proofread).
i mean, if what i've accomplished so far doesn't impress, nothing else will. i'm leaving it to fate, but that doesn't mean i'm not going to try my best in tomorrow's GMAT.
i am really really really looking forward to spring break. and seeing a familiar face again (from 6A!). hajime is leaving on march 10th which is going to suck so bad. and yezi will only be back from florida in may. BLEH. my 2 best friends here are not going to be around for the next 3 months. *SOB*
being a pseudo perfectionist has its costs. the pain of feeling like you haven't done enough or the best. but then again, i don't want to have low standards of myself, my principles and my work. its just going to go downhill from there, down that slippery slope. i guess one important thing that i've learnt from studying abroad is that if you don't hold yourself to the highest standards, no one else will.
and so i decided today that i shall ask edb about the summer allowance they (accidentally) included in their bank transfer. *SOB SOB SOB* i hope they don't make me transfer it back to them, because my honesty will cost me my travel plans for the summer. *SOB SOB SOB*
writing in my blog has never felt so good. releases ALOT of pent up stress and frustration.
a note to myself: jia you! you can do it! :)