Saturday, March 03, 2007
and so life as a 21 year old is nothing special.
EXCEPT that when you are at parties and the police come you don't need to climb over the fence and run away.
haha
more responsibilities, yes definitely. more mature? i think so. more worldly? maybe.
it just seems that as you see more of this world and as you grow older, you start feeling more and more jaded about life. suddenly, i feel so old! i miss having the naivety and innocence that i had 3 years ago, when the world was just singapore, safe and sunny.
you have to fend for yourself when you are all alone in a strange country, becoming hardened in some ways, and some say heartless. you learn that being nice to other people is not always reciprocated, and you start to question yourself, your beliefs and your fundamentals.
the greatest lesson i learnt in a long time, from hajime, is do things for yourself and not for others. for him, he is nice to other people so that he can feel good about himself. putting things into perspective, what he means that you are nice to people regardless of how they treat you, because of your personal fundamentals/moral beliefs etc.
for me, its always of minimum input maximum output. sometimes it seems that i'm taking up losing investments, because you know that the other person will surely never reciprocate in the same way that you hope he or her will.
so why do it?
blind folly i say. that foolishness and foolhardiness i'm trying to regain.
dream dare do!