Monday, November 07, 2005
finished my pchem II test today! woo hoo! :)
one down, 5 more to go.
been thinking alot abt the future. so many options so little time.
thinking of whether i should do masters in france
thinking of whether i should switch my other major from econs to french
thinking of whether i should screw the masters, and do minor in french AND double major in econs and chem E
thinking of whether i should do a study abroad thingy in france
i guess one thing i didn't like abt the education system in singapore ( or at least what i've been thru) is how they don't let you think, explore and discover what you really want to do in life. in pri school, it was all abt getting into the top sec schools. in sec school, it was all abt getting into the top jc. in jc, it was abt getting into a top overseas college.
and then when i dis-root and plonk myself into an environment where there are like zero singaporeans (ok fine there are like 5 of them here) you start thinking alot. i guess the environment is gd, cause you won't get so caught up to match and beat what the other singaporeans.
i mean hey, if i was in someplace else like michigan or cornell, where there is a large singaporean population, it would be like jc all over again- chionging on studies and aiming to get into stanford and mit and harvard for masters.
but what's so great abt masters? other than you having a higher starting pay? was talking to my taiwanese room mate, and she says pple in taiwan do masters cause its not simply enough to do undergrad and get a decent job.
and then i ask myself, why would i want to do masters? because i am really interested in that subject of study? or because i want to get better job prospects?
don't get my wrong. either reason is perfectly rational. just that, currently, i still don't know how much i value each one.
and then after all these musings, you sort of think you went one full circle and you are still back where you started- just as confused.
oh well :) that's life for you i guess haha
i do hope i come out stronger from this. and even if i dont, at least i hope that i'll get to know myself better. my strengths, weaknesses and motivations in life.
i guess for too long i have been driven by others around me. its a little late i guess, but better late than never, to think about what i want to do in my life. :)
and now, time to do more math :( eek. math test on wednesday!